I am so anxiety ridden right now. I feel like I'm going to vomit. WHY AM I SUCH A FREAKING SPAZ????
Crap! I bring this sh*t on myself. Should have walked years ago...and then months ago...and now I'm going to be so heartbroken because I am so invested now. What an emotional 'tard I am.
And all I wanted was a normal relationship - but I don't know what that is!! And I love this guy - but can't be with him if he's going to stay up north. Can't go through 6 more months of that. Or three more months. On that I'm firm. And I can't be with him if he decides he doesn't want to be with me. Duh!! And that would hurt. No one wants to be rejected. Seriously.
So now I'm just waiting...and I hate that. And I feel like I'm going to to vomit. Did I mention that?
No comments:
Post a Comment